When people are not happy with their life, they often feel the emptiness inside their hearts and belly… It pump up and down up and down…Nervousness, depression, stress, confusion, and all kind of sorrow that they can feel…All synchronized in one big empty body…I have lost my mind, heart and soul…if I should die tomorrow, there is nothing for me to regret…I wish I could just die…but I can’t…something is holding me back…I can’t die right now. I should appreciate what the Creator has given me…he gave me a chance to know about life…so I won’t give up my life yet. I’ll live until the fate seals my destiny.
What a month, nothing much, new things…there are, but no fun, so there is no need to tell the story…I’ll tell the fun, keep the grief for me only.
4 days left then another month come. It’s fast. Very fast. Wonder what gonna happen …?
It’s Lunar New Year, 2:09am, I’m still awake.
In our culture, the first day of New Year, people shouldn’t be upset, or doing anything, or giving out money, or…else, becuz it may curse them to do those things for the whole year…New Year supposes to be washing away all the bad things in the old year, and start fresh with everything new on New Year. It’s the time for family members get together and have a good time with each other. We will talk about what has happened to us through the years. We give greeting to people around us. Wish they have a best new year for them and family…
I shouldn’t be like this. I just feel like crying. I don’t know why my heart aches so much. I just wanna cry so loud. But I try to hold back. becuz I don’t wanna ruin such a New Year, and I don’t wanna cry for the whole year coming…But I really wanna cry, I wanna shed the tear out.
Never felt so lonely like this…
Should I just die and leave everything behind?
Or should I continue to feel this way…?
I try to be positive, happy as much as I can. I don’t want people to see me depressed. But then, now, I cannot hold back anymore. I’m going in crazy becuz of this loneliness. I don’t know if I’m missing something…or I’m just a fool myself. Having myself isolated from other or…just …
Another month begins…Does it change at all after New Year? I wonder…
Vietnamese New Year is coming in 3 days 🙂 Such a long year I’ve been, however, I feel like as if it’s just a tickle…
The more ginger gets old, the spicier it gets =)
Been through another year, turning 24 in 10 months O_o, dunno if it’s long or short. But I know, it’s gonna be very fast after all.
I finally have plan for my future ahead. No matter what, I will accomplish it. I swear to God, and hope God helps me, too 🙂
Tomorrow, new class begins, so excited even though I know I will get bored after awhile. 9 weeks aint bad to handle the course =p, can’t wait until June, so that I can finally start my major 🙂
I hope this time I won’t change my mind, ofc not, I will not change my mind. I’ve been wasting too much time already. It’s time to go with the path I’ve chosen…Make up artistry 🙂